Posted from Oaxaca, Oaxaca, Mexico.
One of my new favorite quotes: “Don’t judge my path if you haven’t walked my journey.” (Anonymous)
If you’ve been following our website, you already know that I have been having considerable issues with my ankle (stemming from previous surgeries) since this past spring. If not, you can get caught up on my situation by reading this previous post and then this one. After leaving Pepe in Mexico in June and heading back to the U.S. for medical treatment during the summer, my original plan was to arrive in Oaxaca city in late October and stay with Pepe until early January, when we would then head to the coast for a few weeks. But sometimes life interferes with plans and alterations need to be made.
During my time in Minnesota this summer, I spent countless hours listening to the professional opinions from medical specialists and obtaining alternate professional opinions. After spending time talking with close friends and family and spending unending quiet hours with myself, I have made an epic and very personal decision: I am choosing to have my left leg amputated below the knee. Although it is the most drastic of all options, the universal consensus is that it will be by far the most beneficial. Sometime during the first half of 2013, Apollo will be returning north to deliver me into the safe hands of my award-winning orthopedic surgeon in Minneapolis. After surgery I will remain in the U.S. for a long recuperation time and be propelled forward by my inspiring team of professional amputation rehabilitation specialists.
Yes, this decision is huge. I have taken the past five months – practically every waking minute without exaggeration – to make this decision. And now that the decision has been made, I am moving forward and attempting to prepare myself for life after amputation.
To help in this process, Pepe and I have made a decision to alter our November and December plans. Pepe will remain in Oaxaca and I will spend the next two months living quietly on my own at a charming ocean beach campground directly on the Gulf of Mexico, just a few hours down the mountain from the city of Oaxaca. Well, although the beach isn’t that far away in miles, it does take a full day to drive to as you wind down the beautiful mountain switchbacks from Oaxaca. I will be camping in Apollo and Maggi for the entire time, staying in one location, and finding a daily routine of working on strengthening my soul energy in order to prepare for life after surgery.
I will be doing plenty of relaxing and reading, since in my brief time in Oaxaca city it has become more and more uncomfortable to walk long distances, even with my brace and cane. But I am VERY excited to have the opportunity to not only quietly meditate on my situation, but also to continue practicing Reiki on myself; I have taken three all-day classes while here in Oaxaca, and it has proven to be quite helpful to myself and my ankle.
The next two months are a change of plans from what our original plans for November and December were, but I am extremely excited to do this and am grateful that I have the free time and resources to perform this soul energy strengthening plan.
After discussing this with Pepe, he too is of the belief that my time on my own will be beneficial for my mental health prior to undergoing surgery. And to be honest, this is something I’ve always wanted to do – although when I envisioned this scenario in my fantasies, it was always in Tibet on a mountain top, not on a Mexican coast, and not because I was facing a surgery that would irreversibly alter my life forever. Two months is a long time, but I’m confident that this is the right path for me right now. I will have very limited connection to family and friends, but I will certainly be able to reassure everyone that I am doing fine.
In early January, as we had originally planned, I will pick up Pepe in Oaxaca and together we will head to the Oaxacan coast for a few weeks before making our way back to the United States.
I’m sure there are questions, confusion, concerns, and/or comments. Please trust me when I say that I’ve been through all of them already on my own and that I am ready for this.
But Pepe and I would both really appreciate your sending any positive energy you can spare to both of us as we attempt to find our way through this ordeal.
Thank you all for your past support as well as your continued support. Where this leaves “Apollo’s Journey,” as we’ve been calling our drive through Americas, is unknown at this time. But this change of plans will certainly be its own adventure.
Love and positive energy to you all!